I can really feel my heart lately.

The space around it vibrates and travels all the way to the pit of my stomach. It vibrates with the fear that comes with knowing you are walking the Tennessee line.

The line where you know it is time for big changes. The place where things can never be the same again.

And I am scared. So much that I shake and cry often. But that is all part of the letting go of the old to make room for the new.

I know that crossing the line will only bring better things, even if the cross over brings tragedy and heartache to begin with. But I have to cross over in the hopes that it won’t, because staying in this place will only ever bring it.

Underneath all the fear is a lot of hope. Hope that I can turn it all around and make it right.

So with a giant breath, I look in my rear view mirror and let the mistakes fade away and cross the Tennessee line.

And I leave you with one of my favourite songs about forgiveness, letting go to move forward into a brighter future and trusting in the love that comes with that.

I open my lungs
To breathe in forgiveness and love
Haunting me now, reminders of how I used to be
I know down the road
My troubles are sure to follow
Looking out the window
Hell if I know where I will go
So I will just keep on driving

On my way to L.A.
Looking into the rear view
As the roads fade away
Sworn off my past
The first and last bad call that I ever made
Tell me how to make right
Every wrong turn I’ve learn
That this can all end tonight
Tennessee line just changed my mind
It’s my heart I’ll follow this time

Who would’ve known
That pride is so hard to swallow
As I rest on the shoulder of a road
Growing colder, with the trouble I own
Should I just keep on driving

On my way to L.A.
Looking into the rear view
As the roads fade away
Sworn off my past
The first and last bad call that I ever made
Tell me how to make right
Every wrong turn I’ve learned
That this can all end tonight
Tennessee line just changed my mind
It’s my heart I’ll follow this time

I know I must be doing something right
Head the other way back to where I started out
Ask myself if I can turn it all around tonight
And stop living with doubt

On my way to L.A.
Looking into the rear view
As the roads fade away
Sworn off my past
The first and last bad call that I ever made
Tell me how to make right
Every wrong turn I’ve learned
That this can all end tonight
Tennessee line just changed my mind
It’s my heart I’ll follow this time