What to do with Mojito Mother?
This question has me a pondering lately.
Should I stop writing on Mojito Mother or at least severely cut back?
With my heavy work load I can no longer cope with the attention she desires.
It has been a wicked couple of months with my girls. I really am parent clueless lately and I battle every day with the feelings of not doing it right, and somehow damaging my girls.
Savannah is killing me! She’s so freakin adorable and makes me laugh so hard, but come midday and 7pm she has me shaking in my boots with dread. Getting her to sleep is (roughly) a 1-2 hour nightmare. I’m now back to rocking my baby to sleep. WHATEVER works. Shall be paying for it for years to come no doubt.
And child care is not doing much else other than giving Savannah truck loads of germs. She rarely even gets to go for her one day a week anymore. Poor bubby, I think we might have to pull her out.
My strength is about whacked. On top of that is ongoing health issues for me, and general dissatisfaction with certain aspects of my life. I’ve been going through huge upheavals, but holding on to the fact that it is me clearing up the shit and making room for the amazing! It’s slowly getting better.
But enough about that.
I love writing in this space. I don’t feel I do much and mostly I don’t know what I am doing or if it matters or makes a difference.
Every time I decide I am going to quit as I can’t manage it, I receive a message from a reader saying how this site makes a difference.
It’s hard to quit when you know people’s lives are uplifted by your words (no matter how strange you might think this is.)
I feel a lot of what I do here is quite wishy washy and I just can’t seem to focus on one area or what it is I really need to do. I am hoping Marie Forleo’s B-School will help.
For now my business focus has to be y travel blog. This is my baby and greatest love, the place I feel I can make the most difference.
It is growing rapidly at the moment and I need to jump on that momentum to do more. I’m annoyed at myself for not getting my own products created and missing far too many boats. Three years without putting out my own product is really bad and shows how little I think of my own value and how fearful I am.
I am annoyed at a lot of things lately which I am trying hard to sort out and move back to my space of happiness and gratitude.
I am longing for the day when we have enough income coming in to hire a team to release a lot of the burden so I can be free to do what I want on this space… when I figure out what that is.
I ain’t letting Mojito Mother go. I’m going to sit on her for awhile until I work out what to do. I like to sit on my problems and indecision. I trust that the Universe will deliver me the right answer when it is ready.
I’ve been sitting on my new tag line and look for this site for months. Just last week, while in the shower it came to me, and it is perfect. A few days later my designer presented me with my new looking Mojito Mother site. It’s HOT.
It has inspired me to stick with it and allow it to be reborn with a new energy and focus. Slowly the new way is unravelling itself to me.
For now, I will be posting here at least once or twice a week. I don’t think I can do any more than that at the moment. I’ll keep you posted. I hope you’ll hang out with me still and embrace the new look and focus when she arrives…
at the time she is meant to.
For now enjoy the magic of the Universe!
Comments
Vanessa
I think you’ll find your time in the future for Mojito Mother. But for the time being you could always make a weekly guest post series or something to keep the posting up. The blog could become a sharing site, link ups…. heaps of simple things you can do to take the pressure off yourself but still keep the site up & running until you have the time to dedicate to finding the true purpose of the site 🙂
Caz Makepeace
Great ideas Vanessa. I think I might look more into something easy like that!
Annabel Candy, Get In the Hot Spot
Hi Caz,
Sounds like we’ve both been through the wringer lately. I know a lot of people in the same boat so it must be something in the air. Hopefully all the crap will disperse soon and we can be happy again.
I’m sure you are doing a fab job with your girls. I’m not worried about them at all – you need to take care of yourself first. Sleeping problems are the worst I know how hard and draining that is. I’m sure everyone will tell you to be kind to yourself – easy to say, harder to do so that’s my challenge for you.
As for your blog here don’t worry about that either. It seems to be evolving and growing beautifully. I have similar problems on Get In the Hot Spot always finding it hard to stick to a niche and to have a tight niche so I’ve just created a new slogan and focus there too. Lol, I think it’s my fourth slogan!
In many ways that does seem like a failure so I understand your concern and frustration but I’d say it’s perfectly normal and nothing to be ashamed of – you’re changing every day and so is your blog. The readers will grow with you.
Just enjoy your blog, do what you want with it and see what happens. I took six weeks off blogging over the Xmas/Jan holidays with no real loss in traffic so it doesn’t matter if you only post once a week or even once a month. As long as you keep at it or come back to it when you are ready your readers, inc. me, will be here waiting for you.
Hugs from Noosa x A
Caz Makepeace
Thank you Annabel! It’s been hard to let it go for awhile, but I can only do what I can do. My priority right now is finishing off some projects and getting my health back on track.
I hope you are doing well. Have not caught up in some time. Are you going to Problogger this year? I guess it is easy for you as its much closer
Kathy
Hi Caz – I reckon you will get new motivation for your mojo. I’ve really enjoyed your blog and been inspired by it, and your honesty, including in this post. I get conflicted with the amount of time I put into blogging that eats into parenting, and I don’t make a cent (yet) out of it – but getting stuff out on my blog also makes me a better Mum and I’m sure you are the same. I’m sure your kids are doing fine and Savannah’s sleep will settle. I think that while your y-travel blog is your business and travel your great love, this blog is so much about expressing your essence that you would miss it terribly. I’ll hang in however often you post. There really must be something in the air at the moment and I think with Craig’s cathartic post and your rethink and renewal here it will be positive in the future…kathy
Caz Makepeace
I hope so Kathy! Thank you so much
Veronica @ Mixed Gems
Thanks to you and Craig for sharing so honestly this week. Both posts spoke to me and touched me. I’m in a place of reflection and deliberation myself. I’ll be sticking around to see what’s next. In the meantime, keep following your current priorities. Take care. xo
Caz Makepeace
Thank you Veronica. I appreciate you and glad we could help. It’s a tough road but the light is always there xx
Annie
I always enjoy your posts so I would miss not seeing them, but understand that you have a lot going on, and need to prioritise, especially as your other site is your business/income. The blog will be here for when you need it…..
Caz Makepeace
Thank you Annie! I’m thinking I can just drip feed stuff into here while I get on top of everything else. Slowly slowly.
Caitlin
Are you happy with the centre and the staff, does it meet the national quality guidelines, is it non-profit, is it a playbased learning program? If yes, can you get more days a week of childcare? From what I understand children feel a lot more secure at childcare when they go two or three days a week (which may be feeding into her sleep issues). It may help her immune system equalise and help you with the exhaustion by letting you reclaim a bit of time for yourself. That said, I know it’s easier said than done – there’s a big shortage of childcare – but just something to think of, rather than going the other way and pulling her out.
Caz Makepeace
We’ve spoken about the extra days at childcare and are still undecided but I don’t think we will. We’ll see how things go for the next month or so.
Tash
Hey! I found your blog SO randomly through something about the Okinawa style diet. I have no other words to say. Your beautiful family (your girls are ADORABLE!), travels and way of thinking has inspired me within 45 minutes. The post you wrote as letters to your daughters made me tear up. Your way of thinking is so rational, peaceful and right.
You sound so ambitious, full of love and warm. Your life style as reflected in this 45 minutes or so I’ve been on here has just totally uplifted me.
Thank you for creating this space to leave a legacy no matter what you choose to do with your life!
I wish you all the best!
p.s I think your totally right about angels.
Caz Makepeace
That is such a beautiful comment Tash. Thank you so much I really appreciate it. It’s given me a lovely lift this afternoon when I was feeling a little funky.